|she wouldn't move her hand away from her face|
Zoe's name means 'life' in Greek. God taught me so much through the plea for her physical life, which I wrote about here. It is something that I think about a lot now; the fact that it is God alone who determines the beginning of and length of every person's life.
I am well aware however, especially these days, that just because life exists does not mean it feels like a blessing. Turn on the news or talk to a friend, and it is inevitable to hear. Life can be difficult, sorrowful, and overwhelming sometimes.
In John's gospel, he says of Jesus, 'In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things were made through him, and without him was not any thing made that was made. In him was life, and the life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.' In other words, not only is Jesus a physical creator who conceives babies and sparks heartbeats and sustains breathing, but knowing Him is what gives life meaning, power, and fullness.
I've had the joy of celebrating handfuls of pregnancy announcements over the past few weeks (usually with shrieks that frighten the soon-to-be-'big'-siblings, or with abundant over-sharing about pregnancy and childbirth). We took Landon and Copeland into the doctor's office to see their baby sister on the ultrasound screen. These moments have been beautiful gifts. But we have also done hard things over the past month or so, walking with friends through illness, depression, and abuse. These moments have been gifts too, only because we know a Savior who delivers peace despite our circumstances.
A week or so before the big 20 week, gender-revealing ultrasound, Landon said, "We should name the baby Zoe." Up until this point, the names that the kids suggested were nonsense words or types of sugary treats. I was taken aback that he came up with a unique meaningful name, but honestly thought that we would find out we were having a boy. God knew otherwise :)
I've been listening to this song a ton recently, and it describes perfectly the lesson that the Lord has taught us
through Zoe's life so far.
The hand of the Lord was on me, and he brought me out by the Spirit of the Lord and set me in the middle of a valley; it was full of bones. He led me back and forth among them, and I saw a great many bones on the floor of the valley, bones that were very dry. He asked me, “Son of man, can these bones live?” I said, “Sovereign Lord, you alone know.” Then he said to me, “Prophesy to these bones and say to them, ‘Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord! This is what the Sovereign Lord says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life. I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the Lord.’
Not only does God have the power to bring a new soul into a family, physical life into a womb, but perhaps more miraculously, He has the power to bring heart-pounding joy to tough circumstances, love and forgiveness to someone who did wrong, and knowledge of His presence to the doubting. Praise God for zoe, the life only He can bring.